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5月31日 A reality TV you will loveHave you ever wondered... there are TV shows on lives of doctors, lawyers, detectives and team of detectives, the very mystified professions of our time have all been glorified in more than one show. People simply have insatiable curiosity in their lives. I have found yet another documentary / reality show following the lives of a group of men and women making a living in a very cruel yet real market, 'Wall Street Warriors'. Maybe because of what I do, I love the show, hope you will too.
The first season follows the lives of a few very successful Wall Streeters: a hedgie, a day trader, a sales and an analyst. I think to start off the show for everyone to enjoy, the producers picked all equity guys, easier to understand, plain vanilla. The second season moves on to the slightly more interesting perspective: a rookie who just graduated from NYU, a commodity trader trading concentrated orange juice (There is a prize if you know the ticker for this... ), a private equity fund manager and a couple of brokers. Many other interesting characters are intermittently woven into the show, we see specialists on the floor, financial astrologer, and Tim Sykes (He claims to grow his portfolio from $12k to $2 mio by taking short biased positions in penny stocks...) For those of you not in the industry, the show is not that hard to understand, all the technical jargons are explained for, from short selling to leveraged buy-out. Besides you get to see them playing polo in the Hamptons, driving roaring Ferraris and dating models. But if you do live your life by the greeks, be it alpha or vega, or are glued to your blackberry at dinner on a Friday night waiting for non-farm payroll, it will not be 'this is what money looks like' factor that will draw you to the show. You will love it, because you will know them, what they are thinking, their trouble, their joy... Yeah, true, they have a lot more zeros on their paycheck, but they must have all been there, on the trading floor, once just like us, trying to make it and yet showing others you already have it. So here are some quotes from the show for you to have a taste... 'You keep hearing 'buy side', 'sell side' and always wonder the difference, here it is: if you are on the sell side, you hang up and say 'F*ck you', but if you are on the buy side, you say 'F*ck you' and then you hang up.' 'The two most high IQ jobs are Wall Street and priests, and you can see how they both can use some prayers.' 'Here on Wall Street the bottom line is very simple, it's how much money you can make.' And my personal favorite, 'If you don't love what you do, you don't deserve to be here' Hope you will enjoy the show as much as I do.
4月12日 I let the job get bigger than me...Drinking the poison everyday, I have seen and was told... But for the first time, I lost my temper. I let the job get bigger than who I am, above who I am. It's easy to find excuses, easier to seek absolution from others, but I knew from that moment, I allowed it to happen... It bothers me more than the fact I failed to handle the pressure. Is this the point of no return? 3月11日 In case of emergencyAfter the incident of locking myself outside my bedroom door, i had to think of some contigency plan, just in case...
So here is the thing, for those 3 ppl (it used to be a handful) who come across this blog, if you don't hear from me, see me online or receive any sign of me being alive, please try to give me a call... just to make sure that you call the police before my boss...
Suddenly realise, i have no one to put on the emergency contact, and no one to hold my spare key...
Also, on the cautious note, i should absolutely stay away from ghost movies... 5月15日 Stressed...Ignore the title, i'm stressed over something very trivial... well, it can be trivial...
When one works for the french, do they have to dress french? and how does one do that? 4月9日 On the Olympic torch relayAfter reading a friend's blog, I had a powerful realisation.
All those criticism targetted at Tibet and the numerous assaults on the Olympic torch relay, means that we have something to lose, and thus a lot more to protect.
我们高喊‘保卫圣火’，因为我们要捍卫尊严。 TibetWhy is everybody criticising the Chinese governement for suppressing the Tibetans and human right violation? Don't they see how the Tibetan activist trying to disrupt the Olympic torch relay? I don't see peace in that. the Olympics is a chance for China to finally engage the world, the politicians choose to use Tibet as an excuse to boycott the game. This is not at all in the spirit of the Game.
I think the truth is, they are really scared. with the social development in china, there is a shift of focus from the traditional developed nations to emerging countries like China, undoubtedly, there is a greater focus economically in China. the lead nations are losing their prime status. Believe it or not, the westerners can be very stubborn in their ways, it's hard for them to change, and most disheartenly, they refuse to accept any such drastic change in status. it's human nature to be scared and anxious about the uncertainty to come. it's also human nature to stop by all means such a change, out of self defense. Befriend or be foe.
Mr Hu has always been an advocate of Taoism and Confucious in the moral education of Chinese. In this, I hope he can be strong and firm in his stand in view of the western pressure. Tibet is a souvereign state of the People's Republic of China, it's undisputable to deploy military forces into the region under critical circumstances, it is also not upto any media/nation to criticise the actions of a souvereign state in handling it's own domestic conflict.
Last i checked, China has a legitimate and rational government in its full functionality. There is no reason for any country to blow whistle as if the next moment this gigantic country may suddenly fall apart, due to some problems they themselves have had when they were trying to develop and some are still suffering this day, like inflation and human rights. Until this government stands no longer, we will be strong, we will be firm, in what we believe. Now we need to believe that Tibet is a state of China.
Don't you tread on us!
11月20日 Tomb of coralsTomb of corals
Back from my last trip to Dayand this year, against the current of the monsoon season... suddenly, i realise reality is just unavoidable, even in the happy world of Nemos...
With decreased visibility, and sandy suspensions in the water, the dive sites we went to this time, seem much less lively... the broken corals line the bottom of the sea, in its greyish colour, occasional specs of colour with a remote sign of life. Nemos r gone now, it makes the place really depressing.
there's hazard too, like anywhere. we have our first encounter with triggerfish, the visibility was bad, so i didn't have a very good at the notoriuos fish. but there was fear, even in the happy place, every corner i turn, every rock that i approach, there was the fear that the fish may suddenly appear to attack.
back to my real world now, where there's work to be done, disappointment to be received. life goes on, as one always says... 11月15日 Am i losing the touch?Am i losing the touch?
I used to love this city, love this heat in the air, love peace on a bus ride...
These days, I just can't stand a single encounter with the reality of the streets, a mere confrontation will push me off the edge and snap on the nearest person.
Am i losing the touch?
11月13日 DivingA Note on my diving trips
Maybe it's the atmospheric pressure that weights me down all the time in the city, constantly bombarded by the influx of information, and the gloomy hue of the buildings... The city becomes increasingly less colourful, less appealing than it used to be.
The openness of the sea was entirely another world. There was only peace, and the breathing of yourself, it's almost like meditation, like they will always say, hear your breathing, feel your inner peace. And you have both underwater, where everything remains stagnant for ages, all creatures move gracefully at their own pace, in their own formation.
It's a happy place in the vast blueness. Nemo is such a cheerful looking fish, you won't want to miss the chance to dance a little dance with it with your fingers... It's filled with colour, as you are floating adrift in water, all the worries just went away... The whole world above with its weighing pressure goes away...
Lightness, it's what i need the most... 10月11日 便便鱼it's a name yy gave to sea cucumbers, i think it's really appropriate.. so thereafter, i address anything longish, uglish as Bian Bian Yu...
These days a lot of things of mine have a name with double character...
DouDou, Ruirui, bian bian yu, guigui (turtle seen at diving)...
Markably, decreased verbal expression and possibly IQ...
10月2日 Let's get it done!et nope, I'm not working for Citi..;)
lately feel life is losing control, there are so much to do and yet i'm so lazy.
I need to take control of my life...
I need to get started on my projects,
get assignments done
get some payments from the equally lazy brokers,
and get a hair cut,
a manicure
and some new clothes...
Sloppy is not an excuse...
I need to start getting those things done! 9月18日 Put it down on the calendar风水问题，气不过，不过想想自己还是很幸运的。
Just had a chat with an old friend...
I always have so many plans, but never know where to start. So Put It Down On The Calendar, and it will be done.
So many places that i want to be, as a start, i marked two holidays..
this weekend at tioman for diving... (tmr, i'm going to see a chinese doctor, have to make my ankle well...)
Dec to Cambodia... talked about it for such a long time (must be the effect of the small lobsters at the beach, too mcuh attraction, more than Ank Wat), finaly we've have put it down on the calendar... thanks to the person who made it possible... and for agreeing to take a huge detour just for the petit lobsters... (we aren't very smart ppl, really...)
Actually many thanks go to the one who made both trips possible at all, and putting that lobster image in my head... again, i'm such an impressionable person, lobster has much stronger calling than stone temples...
So if anyone asks, i'll say, oh i'm going for the red lobsters by the beach...
Yah, the lobster
(Actually, i've a huge doubt on if those are really lobsters... ) Doesn't matter, i'm going to Cambodia... for the lobsters... Fengshui probelm It has to be the FengShui of this new appartment.
上周五破了像，弄花了我的脸，不说。这周末要去diving来的，昨天却歪了脚！
一定是风水不好。。。
明天，我也要学个老朋友BLOG上将的，去染红指甲，驱驱邪。。。
气死 4月22日 LightnessLightness, c'est ce que je veux... c'est dont j'ai besoin maintenant, comme toujours...
lightness, in appreciation of the great Milan Kundera
and Monsieur, Philip... Je suis comme je vis, je vis comme je suis, je fait tout ce que je veux
4月18日 second chanceswe all deserve a second chance, to make it right... cos we are mere humans, and human makes mistakes, for all sorts of reasons, we do...
so we all deserve a second chance, for no one should be punished for a mistake for so long so hard...
all you have to do is survive... then try to have a little bit of faith, if not, find someone who can tell you to... and if do find such a person, you should know that you aren't the most unlucky one, cos you still have that person...
sorry blabbering.. yet again.. 4月9日 Cheap labourwe are all cheap labours... a recent disillusionment...
after years and years of what they call education, essentially we are still just cheap labours, fundamentally not much difference from those orphan kids in vietnum working their fingers bleeding sewing together your Nike shoes... we work, in the danger of exploding our head and splashing our brain matter over all the computer screen, just like them...
so we are just cheap labours... this is singapore... 3月29日 i'm pinning it on the walli think i'm late, yah, i'm going to be late for class, still printing notes...
but i did something, that i would never do in the past, i pinned it on the wall... yah, no kidding i did... my failed test paper...
not so much to motivate myself as to remind myself... to remind myself of what i can do and what i can't, and more importantly knowing and accepting the difference between them... and also to laugh about it with friends, if not as much as the infamous 'yesterday 的 strike price', but still it's up for a good laugh...
it's going to be a long race, we can't win every one of them, when it finally ends we would just be happy that we made it to the end...
so yah, i'm pinning it up on the wall...
3月14日 yah, i still can't do ityah, it's for now officially proven that i can't do it... ppl say, you should never judge yourself for you never know your limit, but once you prophathize your failure, its official...
as for now, i still can't quite do it...
there are those who are just smart, it's all easy for them... ppl say it doesn't matter, what you learn in school, you never get to use it anyway, it's just a paper... it's never easy for me, i'm not smart i know, but at least for now, i want to try, i just wish i know what i can do that counts, cos apparently what i do is never good enough...
i wish i'm rich, then i can always get that pair of shoes that i like, or an airticket somewhere i can be less aware of the fact that i'm this stupid...
i wish i'm pretty, that makes even learning to read seem redundant, all you have to do everyday is just to be pretty... some rich or smart guy will just want to see you pretty( haveing said that, i do feel lucky that God didn't make me a guy)...
i wish i am strong, that i could be firm in the belief that it's not how fast you get there, but knowing with principles you will get there... but i'm not... i panicked...
i'm none of those... i know that i always rank the third, God is always number 1, others number 2, that's a talent rite? i think it is...
i've none of those great gifts from the beyond, on certain level i'm Bridget jones, haha... nah, my boyfriend isn't that cute, but i'll survive, i will somehow... and all you have to do is to survive...
panick attacki think i just had a panick attack, right before my test...
i tried, i try to everything, if not to do it rite, at least to do it...
i didn't choose this path, i don't like it, i dun have the qualities to even be on this path, but somehow somehow God put me here, to do what i don't like and what i dun understand, most importantly what i can't do... He has a reason, i've faith, to show me something... so far, what i learnt, is that i really can't do this...
i tried, by my limited means... there are always ppl who will understand, who will do it rite, it's just not me... so what i'm doing here, every single day of my life, is just to do a little bit more, if i can't understand, at least read it all, it's my commitment, i'm just here trying to survive...
and all you ever have to do it jus tto survive... just to survive... |
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